i am trying to get over with it...trying to cheer mydelf up thx my frens for cheering mi each and everyday...=)

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12:10 AM

28/10/2005

i went out with my working collegues and sister... was goin to have dinner and i recieve a call...
frm my best fren...she told mi tat u actually said if u really neglect mi then break la...and ur god sis actually mention saying..ask u not to stead with mi and now tis is wad happens...and asked u to become the father sons.... i tink i neo wad u meant all those days... i agreed with ur sis why
stead with mi at first why u say u like mi...i liked the leslie during chalet not tis i hate it.....the person u like wans't mi...i knew sth wrong...trying to hold back my tears.. and i straight away sms u...endmour relationship ba... i couldn't belief wad ur sis said also.... i don neo....i wish u all the best hope u can get ur happiness....we r still frens....

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:07 AM

27/10/2005

totally no contact.....no....tis shows sth

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11:06 AM

26/10/2005
we went to play badminton...u played well... hai i don have any mood to play too... i am trying to avoid... i don neo... u r like a stranger le....i don neo ........

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12:28 AM

25/05/2005
i was working no msg frm u... den i decided to msg u ard afternn tot u are slping but u went to watch movie with ur sis nvm... felt tt u spend more times with her le... in ur heart i tink i am not impt i am the last... i faded away..wad u said was lies...pls do not say anythings before u really does...i told myself u need to help ur sis to take care of the baby more impt ...and since so long she neber go watch movie neber mind lo go la... i jus feel tat our relationship got further..

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 1:02 AM

24/05/2005
afraid u are sian and cant cope with the baby when ur sis went for reborning so i pei u...when we were in bus i asked u if we got anything can we talk it out but u said later ba not now.... sittin there like strangers...hai.... i don neo wad to do le... i got up my courage to ask u but u say later...nvm...when we were at BK worst sit there so long also neber tok... i am really blank don neo wad to do... onli thing is to cheer u up ...i am trying no matter wad even like a fool but it didnt seems to work....i felt tt u r like the father of this baby or wad...after sakae at marina u went with ur sis fren to eat i don mind u go... so i go home alone again i took cab... i didnt wanted to take train ...again on cab i break down...

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 1:20 AM

23/10/2005
i showed u the mms but u jus had normal reaction...on the train u said mi not listening yo wad hannah said everytime was playin u was veri fierce...u neo wad i manage to hold back my tears...i don neo why suddenly u like tt...u seem far i neo i am at wrong but can u all pls jus tell mi so earlierfrm tt moment i was down..i don neo wad to say...u neber held my hand...u almost fell once i wanna hold u 2nd time den manage to held ur hand...after tt no more not even once not even other days it got worst...
ur god sis son's birthdae...i was so quiet all day long tink i am not so sociable i did not have any mood tt day i tried to push myself to be positive again.... i am useless... after tt u went out with ur god sis i did not tag along i m okie with it u can helo her take care of the baby cos u are more pro... so i went home i took cab and while travellin i look out of the window ...todae 1 mth with u but its seems tat road is becoming deemer i wanted to tell u so much things but i did not have the chance........i tot again and again u changed le...breakin down again... i went to pierce my ear again...its numb it don hurts anymore..

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:21 AM

22/10/2005

i was working frm 9 till 3pm... i couldn't slp at all was thinkin of u...i lose my concentration at work...i don neo wad to do...u went to help ur god sis prepare all those things nvm... i was waitin for ur msg but there wasn't...to mi i have hurt u deeply....i still think of positive side... i prepared sth for u too.. hope to gif u on 23/10 but goin to ur god sis hse then u say u goin out then i think 24 gif u lo...i took pics and sent to u neber mind tat u cant recieve

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12:47 AM

21/10/2005
i know i am so selfish and stupid to tell u all tis... i told u tt u could find a better gal then me because i don wan u to be mocked... during those days i have red eyes because of crying too much.. i am like a freak ...u r really gd guy... thx for takin care of mi and veri concern of u... i still don neo why u like mi i wanna neo but u told mi liking someone also no need to have a reason... but i don agree so... i felt so alone when watching the movie i felt so coldfelt like breaking down ,no more feelings frm u ...i neo u r angry...u asked hannah n hannah told u not to mention ur ex...(don blame her cos i neo tt u was msging her...frm u two actions..)i did not wanna tell u cos i felt tt everything everyday is related to ur ex...but it's ok with mi...i neo ur ex done a lot of things wit u memories r wit u inside u so i wont stop u...

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12:33 AM

the chalet was fun sia brought our frenship better i guess if we are seperated next year de huo i will cry ah...hai i feel tat frens neber come and go treasure the ones beside u.. if u really like someone tell him or her fast or u mite regret... some things mite come and jus go a gd chance neber wait for u ... frens also when u are down or wad they are always there for u but u mus know how to treasure... after the chalet i don neo why i cried so much... i also don neo wad i feelin wad has happened i jus went home and then later at nite when listenin to a song i started to have tears on mui cheeks jus like tt.. mayb its memories ba... i felt tt i did not treasure mui friendship well and also the ones i like... i neber had the chance to say i like them i love u i dare not...so i kept quiet ... i do not how to treasure...

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:56 AM

eee i so ugly on the rite


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:47 AM

=P


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:46 AM

gays ahaha


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:45 AM

miss hannah


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:45 AM

wow seh


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:44 AM

kieran and hannah


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:44 AM

09oct 10 oct 11 oct chalet haha see all tis pics...



* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:41 AM

f4


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:46 AM

edwin actin...


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:44 AM

u cAme tO mui life lightened up mui days... u are so caring and tedious... i am worried of u urself gettin tired everyday as u slp so less and been so bz helping ur god sis take care of the baby...veri swt of him also...always luv u.. haha chalet comin =D don forget to go ya frens...

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12:36 AM