23/10/2005
i showed u the mms but u jus had normal reaction...on the train u said mi not listening yo wad hannah said everytime was playin u was veri fierce...u neo wad i manage to hold back my tears...i don neo why suddenly u like tt...u seem far i neo i am at wrong but can u all pls jus tell mi so earlierfrm tt moment i was down..i don neo wad to say...u neber held my hand...u almost fell once i wanna hold u 2nd time den manage to held ur hand...after tt no more not even once not even other days it got worst...
ur god sis son's birthdae...i was so quiet all day long tink i am not so sociable i did not have any mood tt day i tried to push myself to be positive again.... i am useless... after tt u went out with ur god sis i did not tag along i m okie with it u can helo her take care of the baby cos u are more pro... so i went home i took cab and while travellin i look out of the window ...todae 1 mth with u but its seems tat road is becoming deemer i wanted to tell u so much things but i did not have the chance........i tot again and again u changed le...breakin down again... i went to pierce my ear again...its numb it don hurts anymore..

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:21 AM