HMMM bad day for me todae kinda suai... unlucky i mean... went to sch no bus to board wth.. den i was late liao.. den hannah reached first ... didn't want her to wait so long ma she ask me faster so i take cab lo.. then toke $4.20 cab to sch and u neo wad saw bear bear in sch den he say he called me but i neber heard.. he told me behind me got 2 TP bus sia... diAOZ..... haix... not my day... den alex asked shawn to meet us at overhead bridge aniway i was not on form i mean sth wrong wit me la den neber tok much... sorri...

haix... firstly la i tink a lot of misunderstanding between us... u didn't like to go out with one of our fren cos u got ur reasons i mean ok its reasonable... i don like her charcter too i agree ... i don like doesn't mean i don like the whole person ( totally ignore)... if i really dislike one person i wouldn't care... u neo wad i mean me?? if u don't understand i can jus tell u again... u wanted to write tt phrase i stopped u cos ish my fault ok... i tot at first it would like arouse her attention.. ppl mite be sensitive she got feeling oso rite... she ish still ur fren rite? ish she? isolate her??? if i put myself in her shoes i will definetly go BONKERs or cry maybe and asking myself "y y my fren treat me like tt"... she can change but she needs time... sometimes i don neo why u can get so well with her then sometimes not... nvm i partner her den u left alone with denise i tok to her then was tinkin y u neber tok to mi or us... then i tok to u u oni reply one or two... i don neo...i tink u still don understand me well... frm the begining u hab always neber set trust on mi and tt really hurts me a lot... cos neber ever frm i am born till now nobodi ever said tt... i tried to keep everything to myself secrets or wadever tt u told mi i neber even tell ppl... since u neber set trust on me forget it..nvm jus disappointed... wad has past is already over i don wish the same history to repeat... it wont be nice and will certainly leave a scar there ...

distance bet u and me oso went apart u wasn't that guy i neo the last time... not tt cheerful, social,caring and e.t.c... now u changed its like u are another person after the holiday... seems like everything are not impt even friendship among us ... priority is ur game and maybe i tink ur own fren more impt cos longer relationship... u are the one who said frens YOU shi lai zhao ni, mei shi bu zhao ni... ya true and u hate it... but u became one of them like tt.. after sch u went home so early... i mean ok la ish like even a class gatherin oso so difficult... haiz... complex... i don neo i don neo ... i may look happi outside... acting tough... u don neo how i feel oso....

i don neo i jus don neo wad is happening to tis world ...


shall leave and procceed...

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 7:13 AM